Although twenty-something me didn’t spend a lot of
time thinking about forty-something me I’m pretty sure that even if twenty-something
me had taken some time to ponder what
life would be like in her forties she would not have expected to be parenting
toddlers.
So now, I am one of those “older moms”. I am the oldest mom on the playground. I am the oldest mom at daycare. When I see women with children Doodlebug’s age at
the pediatrician, the grocery store, and anywhere else you might see
mommies and kiddos, I am the oldest one with the youngest kid. Always.
It doesn’t matter that I might be able to run circles around some of
these young mommies – or at the very least keep up with them. It doesn’t matter that my clothes are
(relatively) hip and that I don’t have a visible gray hair. I am older
than my toddler mom peers.
Haven’t we all heard “I want to be a young mom so
my kids and I can grow up together”?
Said by young moms, naturally. “I
want to be having kids when I’m staring menopause in the face” is said by no
one ever…at least I don’t think so. I
don’t want to present my situation as less than ideal, or an afterthought. There are advantages to being older parents,
such as financial and professional security.
While we are far from rolling in money, we are financially sound and
established in our careers. The extreme
penny pinching, robbing Peter to pay Paul, and living paycheck to paycheck are
in the past. I also think that more life
experience and broadened world view may lead to more
relaxed parenting. There tends to be
less stress over “am I doing this right” and more patience that sometimes comes
with age.
I am more confident and self-assured in my forties
than I was in my twenties and thirties, which is a natural result of
maturity and life experience. As a
mother in her forties, confidence is my ally. I’m more outspoken and able to ask for what I
want or what I think my child needs when dealing with insurance, healthcare
workers, and educators. I’m less likely
to accept the canned “this is the way things are” and more inclined to
push and question on my child’s behalf if I need to.
As an older mother, I find myself taking the time
to appreciate and find humor in things that would have (and did) stress me out
and annoy me when I was in my twenties. Since
bringing Zack in to the family was such a conscious choice and such a long
process, I think it helps me to stop and take time to appreciate just how rich
my life really is. I know it sounds
silly to have these “gee my life is great” moments when I’m cleaning up so much
pee I’m considering adding it as a skill on my resume, but at this age and
place and my life, I really am grateful for all of it.
I’m fortunate to be fit and healthy and although I
am absolutely certain Jillian Michaels could teach me a thing or ten, my
mommy-hood part II experience has been enhanced by the fact that I
exercise a priority (usually). The chasing after
a toddler and the sleepless nights that accompany would have definitely been
more painful if I were out of shape.
And if I didn’t before, I definitely have motivation to stay in shape
now, other than my own vanity.
I’m not suggesting twenty-somethings can’t be
wonderful mothers. I’ve touted the
benefits of mature parenting but there are equally compelling benefits to being
young when your kids are young. Perhaps
some young mommy will write a blog post about that. As for me, I’ve been a young mom and now I’m
a…well, let’s just call me a seasoned mom, how about that? At forty-six (there, I said it) I know who
I am and I know what’s important. I also
know what’s not important, like sweating the small stuff and worrying about
what other people think.
Parenting small children at this point in life is
not for everyone. But it the path we’ve
chosen. Outside of international adoption circles it is the
path less traveled...but in the words of Robert Frost, “I took the road less
traveled by, and that has made all the difference”. Well said, Mr. Frost. Indeed it has.
3 comments:
Love it!!! :-)
Well said my friend!
Older mama raising my hand. But can I just say that 40 something me really does miss 20 something me and thinks that 20 something me's body could handle this mama-to-a-toddler thing much better than the achy body I am lugging around now. LOL. Other than that though, 40 something me is a more patient, intuitive, compassionate me/mommy and that is pretty awesome. xo.
Post a Comment